This is so beautiful, and your feelings in response to the Alice Munro article mirror how I feel reading your pieces. It's easy to fall into their unreality again and again, and you just have to keep picking yourself up and refusing to abandon yourself, even when your anger, pain, despair and crazy, self-harming behaviours have been used…
This is so beautiful, and your feelings in response to the Alice Munro article mirror how I feel reading your pieces. It's easy to fall into their unreality again and again, and you just have to keep picking yourself up and refusing to abandon yourself, even when your anger, pain, despair and crazy, self-harming behaviours have been used against you and you shame yourself all the time for reacting in that way. I really appreciated your post on Instagram about sexual abuse because the caregiver who was abusive towards me and headed the dysfunctional family (with everyone being in a spell of unreality), experienced sexual abuse as a child. She never sexually abused me but she would say extremely off things about my father and I, the dog and I, commented on/mocked my body, asked me for private information about friends etc., and did not allow me to have any boundaries - for example, I wasn't allowed to close my bedroom door to get changed even when I was 12 years old.
This is so beautiful, and your feelings in response to the Alice Munro article mirror how I feel reading your pieces. It's easy to fall into their unreality again and again, and you just have to keep picking yourself up and refusing to abandon yourself, even when your anger, pain, despair and crazy, self-harming behaviours have been used against you and you shame yourself all the time for reacting in that way. I really appreciated your post on Instagram about sexual abuse because the caregiver who was abusive towards me and headed the dysfunctional family (with everyone being in a spell of unreality), experienced sexual abuse as a child. She never sexually abused me but she would say extremely off things about my father and I, the dog and I, commented on/mocked my body, asked me for private information about friends etc., and did not allow me to have any boundaries - for example, I wasn't allowed to close my bedroom door to get changed even when I was 12 years old.
Thank you so much for your writing.