Fucking Magic #4 (Digital)

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Fucking Magic #4 (Digital)

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Fucking Magic #4 is an exaltation of grief, holding space for the pain of surviving childhood trauma and living with estrangement from family of origin. It is a reimagining of what love, family, home, and belonging can be while remaining committed to the articulation of pain. It’s about crying my eyes out in the snow and moving through that pain as a process of healing and transformation. It’s about building what I can while I mourn what I’ve lost, and what I never had. Fucking Magic #4 goes deep into terror of abandonment and shame hardened in my body, while building safety and real, trust worthy love. It reclaims pleasure, sexuality, and desire, naming cock sucking as a queer practice and sexual submission as a space of trauma magic. It’s about loving and making peace with all the different aspects of me, and how damaging it is when I reject parts of myself. Fucking Magic #4 is about the practice of saying no, all the times my no was ignored, and how hard it is to reclaim the power of that word, how hard it is to believe it will be heard. It’s about stalking continuing eight years after the end of an abusive relationship and the power and revenge of living my best life. Fucking Magic #4 is about nonmonogamy, #slut4slut love, bisexuality, queer crushes, falling back in love with the world, and pain as an integral part of the process.