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The eyes looking back

The eyes looking back

On my refusal to be an object and what this can sometimes make men feel

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Clementine Morrigan
Jan 31, 2024
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He tells me he is not used to dating women like me. I don’t know what he means. What kind of woman am I? His other partners: beautiful. I feel no animosity, no jealousy. I feel only the kindred connection of women who share a lover. It’s not that I’m not aware of our differences: she contours her face and has an instagram account dedicated to make up, I don’t wear make up, she is heterosexual but tells me in confidence that she is curious about women, I am queer in all senses of the word. But I don’t see these differences as constituting us as different types. I don’t see us as fundamentally different, and I don’t rate us on any scale. I don’t compare myself to my metamour: I adore her.

Is this hard earned? Yes. In another time I struggled to attain a type of femininity that was always outside of my reach. I lamented my inability to apply eyeliner, my inability to care about it. I remember the heartbreak and the despair of being rated and compared. I remember other women as my enemy, as my competition. Male attention the resource we would happily rip each other’s throats out for. I remember something older too: something before women were my enemy: I adored them.

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