Ceremony

Some things I learned from ayahuasca.

I don’t identify with having c-ptsd anymore. I didn’t think I would ever feel this way but I do. It isn’t that I feel totally healed and resolved, or that I have shaken off all my unhelpful patterns and defenses. It’s that I have way more capacity for seeing my patterns and way more flexibility in choosing how I want to respond to them. My agency has grown and my ability to be with hard feelings that come up without becoming overwhelmed by them has grown. Now I see that the story of my trauma is not the story of my life. It’s a part of my life, but I am not defined by it.